Lazarus

 LAZARUS

Jesus said, “Remove the stone.” Martha, the sister of Lazarus, said to Him, “Lord, by this time there will be a stench, for he has been dead four days.

I am here and I am me 

and, I was always me. 

Now though, 

I am learning to un-learn 

the rough ruts I carved into my mind 

when I carved him out of pain and fear. 

When he first found me 

I could only be 

in the form of thought and longing 

but, 

I was me, 

and he was me 

finding myself, and now

I am myself, and he is not dead, but we 

because he was always me. 

The love, the life, the pain we lived; 

my loves, my life, and my pain. 

And when I was him, 

and when I was only just remembering to be me, 

and when I was only just learning how to not be him 

but to have been him, 

I told him to tell me that if I just let him 

suffocate me a little longer, 

then the air would not burn so sharp 

nor the light pierce so bright

as I emerged, 

but now I am a little stronger, 

and now I cannot tell myself that this coat is my skin, 

and now I want the air to burn if it means that I get to feel the light. 

I want to breathe,

and I am breathing, 

and maybe now 

these are shallow breaths

but, 

the dead skin of this mask is sloughing off,

and every day it gets harder to plaster it back on to my face 

and to use his visage to smile at the world. 

When Lazarus heard the call to wake and to come out 

he did not take a shower, or change his clothes before he sought the sun, 

and I do not want to wait in this tomb until the stink wears off 

and Martha brings me a clean set of clothes.

Wisdom and Reputation - Wisdom of the Vikings Part 6

Independence

It is fortunate 

to be favoured

with praise and popularity.

It is dire luck

to be dependent

on the feelings of a fellow-man.

Opinion of Others

He is fortunate

who is favoured

with respect and good reason.

Advice given

by others

is often ill counsel

This is part 6 in an ongoing series (the series starts HERE) bringing together the Hávamál (a collection of Norse wisdom poetry) and the still-evolving rules and mores of the Internet, particularly as they are developing in the realm of social media.

These two poems deal rather directly with the power and danger inherent in the good opinion of others. Despite the Viking reputation for toughness which we in the United States often associate with a sort of rugged individualism (and, to be fair, the Icelanders certainly had their share of individualism relative to the rest of the medieval west), Icelanders recognized—far better than many in the modern west—the vital importance of functional community. Indeed much of the Hávamál deals explicitly with how to retain functional community in a tense and violent situation. In this context, the good opinion of others—potential allies or enemies—is as much a resource as physical strength of skill. Humans are a social species after all.

So in these pieces we encounter both an acknowledgement that a good reputation is of significant value and the warning that those who become overly dependent on the opinion of others ultimately harm themselves. It is a blade which can turn on the hand that holds it. On the positive side, being the sort of person that others respect is pleasant and protective. Online, having a lot of "followers" or readers" is the basic form of capital. It may not be what you are there "for" but, for better or worse, it is the way internet culture tends to determine the value of a particular account (if not the value of the person who controls that account). Being a thought framer, someone whose ideas are valued by others is fundamental to this, and one classic indication that an online thought leader is going into decline is that they become derivative, merely echoing and amplifying the ideas and creativity of others.

Almost paradoxically though, one of the greatest dangers to someone with a good reputation is the temptation to rely on that reputation in their estimation of their own value. The moment a successful internet creator begins to ask "will my followers approve of this idea" is the moment that the quality of their ideas begins to decline. It was the independence and honesty of the thought product that drew your audience in the first place which means that the tighter you cling to the audience, the less they will respect you for it and the more your work will suffer. 

PART 7

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